i'm moving to maine at the end of september. this is going to suuuuuck.

in other newz, i hate everything. kbye.

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meme: ( 72 common fears.. .. . )

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today is not the day. :(

Current Mood: tired

i changed the theme on my lj and it looks buttfucked now. pffffth. i can't even read it without my glasses on.

but...... .i think i should put in an update while i'm here. everything's mostly ok. i'm still living with my sister. nicky moved out. i don't talk to him much anymore. well, at all. yeah, i'm all fucked up over it. it was my fault. what the hell ever. i finally get completely sober and lose my omgbff. 'slike losing my brother, it was. funny how that works out. -_-

yeah and.. ... john stamos had a fantastic mullet. i watch too much nick at nite. gaaaaah!

and i should fix that thing that says "i'm just a drunk punk with a tear in me beer"... .cuz i'm not. there's a tear in my diet coke! that doesnt sound nearly as cool tho.

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cinematic_Titanic

That makes me feel good in the pants.

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Why do I keep running away from everything? I have come so far from who I used to be. Its time to stop this.

I'm sorry.

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anna nicole smith died today. i'm sad... :`(

all that trainwreckyness aside, she seemed cool...

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i'm alive... .. .

i forget that i have this account sometimes. i've been working a lot and i broke my leg in december. i hate ice!!! i think all of my body parts are just going to fall off one of these days.. ..cuz its the 3rd time i broke that leg. lucky number 3....i'm a total dipshit when it comes to walking with crutches too.

my new year resolution was to ~actually~ cut down on the amount of books i've been buying. i think i've read the entirity of all the victorian literature ever since november. i long for a fricking comic book. mmm...ya! the preacher ~~ i need to find those comics again.

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i have the fucking flu....

AHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: sick

i deleted my myspace account... .way too many spam bots and emo brats. haha! i really didn't have the time to keep up with it.

i'm still alive. i have really no time to myself to even get on the computer.

i'm going to be 30 on thursday. waaahhhhh!! i think i am just going to sleep that entire day.

speaking of sleep, that is what i am going to do now.

~sQu

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i think i am in love. maybe it's like. i don't know.. i don't know..

i moved in with my sister. it's a looong stor-raaay.. . i get to spend time with my niece, so i guess it's ok. i'll tell the stor-raaaaay later.


~~~

es demasiado atrasado. crecido para arriba debo ser y no escribiendo palabras secretas en espanol. estoy muy bien sin embargo, no me preocupo de mi. Nicky piensa que necesitamos tiempo aparte. no tengo ninguna idea que el significa. teniamos tanto tiempo aparte cuando desapareci y fui a Los Angeles. pense que el era mi amigo preferido. el fue a London a ver a su familia. no desee ir. el me ha ayudado a traves tanto. no pienso que habria podido superar el apego de droga si es no estaba para el. no se. deseo dormir por mil anos. mi cabeza ha sido llena de muerte.

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.. my only mistake is that i keep hoping

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i think starting in abouts feb/march:

first i was in washington state, then i was in texas, then i was in ohio, then new jersey, now i am back in pennsylvania. that is what my last few months were like. we stopped every where inbetween. i just decided to take off and travel around for a while. this year is sorta one big party because of that evil thing thats going to happen in november.

nicky came with me. our lease was up at that house, so we took our crap and put it into storage. my sister's got the cats. that's where we are now. i had a bunch of cash saved from that job i had in cali. might as well have some fun with it. i got an old beater car and drove everywhere. we're leaving for new orleans on sunday. we might stop and help out if there is still a need for it. i havent been up on the news as much. i love that town so much.

was nice to get out and clear me head. i did a lot of thinking........self reflections and all that. i'm still reflecting. i know who i am and what i am not.

it's nice to know that.

see youse on the next time...

~sidney

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ad a survey thing i stole from miss ziggy!

*January

1. Did you have a new year's resolution this past year? Yes
2. Who kissed you at midnight? I kissed my beer
3. Does it snow where you live? Yes
4. Do you like hot chocolate? Yes
5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? No.

*February

1. Who was your valentine in 2005? My right hand
2. What did your valentine get you? Messy
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? Yes...

*March

1. Are you Irish? A bit.
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? Yep.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005? Worked.

*April

1. Do you like the rain? Yes.
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? No.
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter? no.

*May

1. What's your favorite kind of flower? roses
2. Do you like the spring? Sure
3. Finish the phrase: April showers bring may flowers, what do may flowers bring? Allergins. !
4. What would you think of as a spring color? green.

*June

1. What year did/do you graduate from school? 1994.
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? no
*July

1. What did you do on the 4th of July? had friends over. nicky made me eat cow. got drunk...
2. Do you go on any vacations during this month? No.

*August

1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? no
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? none...
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer? No, but i'd like to
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? no

*September

1. Did you attend school/college in '05? No.
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? Erm, Carl.
3. Do you like fall better than summer? No.

*October

1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? Vyvyan from the Young Ones
2. What's your favorite candy? Suckas.
3. What did you dress up like this year? a zombie

*November

1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving? my mom's
2. Do you like stuffing? Yes.
3. What are you thankful for? good friends

*December

1. Do you celebrate christmas? Not really.
2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? No.
3. What do you want this year for christmas? a car...or motorcycle...pweas??!!
4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? a leather jacket
5. Do you like cold weather? Yes

Current Mood: good

nothing really happening. much boredom lately.. .

possibly moving back to los angeles sometime in the new year, but i haven't decided yet. i'm doubtful that i will.

i'm at my sister's place in Erie - here for the holiday. going to watch the grich with my neice in a bit :)

i've decided that i'm going to get a motorcycle instead of a car. muwahaha! psychomania squidney!

eh, anyway...have a nice holiday and a non-fucked up new year :D

Current Mood: good

hot damn. i'm going to be 29 next week. where HAS all the time gone?

nothing worth going on about has been happining.

went to a samhain party. it was fun. i kinda drifted away from all that years ago because i felt disconnected from it. eh, i dunno. nothing to really be spiritual about anymore, i guess. hard to explain. hard to put into words...

i've been on an anime kick. :P i really like hellsing and full metal alchemist

i think i'm going to get a bath (mmm...aromatherapy candles) and get to bed.

adios!

( stolen survey thing )

Current Mood: tired

Lux has passed away at the golden age of 13. He went in his sleep. Luxy had been sick for a few years. We buried him in the back yard. Landlady said it was okay.

I made a little monument and stuff...

Lunch is sad. I don't think he has the kitty-depression going on, but I think I'm going to adopt a new friend for him.

It's not really bugging me because he isn't sufferring anymore. He's in kitty heaven drinking from the rivers of cream and eating tuna from the tuna trees.

Can this journal get any more depressing?

I hope not. I'm doing well, despite the loss of Lux, health and all. I've got some job interviews lined up and I'll be shopping for a car in the near future. Speaking of, I need to get my license switched back to PA instead of CA. Keep an eyeball on the table for an 'I hate the DMV' post. Ziggy can relate! :-P Future's so bright, I gotta wear sunglasses at night. Haaaahaaa...

No, it is. Things are looking up for once. :-) It's about right fucking time.

I'm going to watch the Young Ones now. After I glue star studs to my forehead!

Current Mood: Not all that drunk, really.

( stupid survey )

Current Mood: drunk

Not much going on really. Nicky's going to New Jersey for the Labor Day weekend. I'll be here alone.

Wish I had a car. I'm just going to rot in front of the computer all weekend. Or go to a bar. My life is so thrilling.

and now, a haiku!

LiveJournal Haiku!
Your name:	squidney
Your haiku:	earlier and we got lost and ended up in the short amount of time
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Created by Grahame

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